Chapter 1

Walking out of my class I thought how it would be to finally be free of this place. School was my most hated thing in life at this point. I was majoring in computers and it was the hardest thing to do.

As I rushed home, I found my best friend sitting on the couch watching TV. Hey. I said as I walked in and threw my keys and bag on the counter. He didnt even notice I was there. What was up with him these days? I thought to myself. Oh I guess I should tell you who I am and who im talking about huh?

Well, my name is Shari, im a 24-year-old student at the University of Charlotte in North Carolina. This is my last year, thank God. Anyway, I moved here from Raleigh, to a place off campus. I miss my family, but this is a career for me and I can go home whenever I need to. Im only a few hours away, so they visit ever so often too.

My best friend is Clay. We have been best friends since middle school. The first day I moved he befriended me. He was always the talkative type and I was always the shy one. Sounds kind of funny huh? Since im sitting here rambling.

Well lets start at the beginning. The summer of 89 I moved from Kentucky to North Carolina. My dad got a great job offer so we had to go. I wasnt too excited about it at first but after we got moved in I was starting to like it. The summer went by pretty fast I had only met one real friend. His name was Clay; he was a cute little red headed boy that lived down the street. He was well behaved and my parents really liked his family.

I was starting the fifth grade that year and I was ten years old. Clay was going into the sixth grade and he was ten as well. The best thing about school was lunch, when I got to sit with him. He was so sweet, and he was always so witty. Saying things off the wall, and making everyone laugh. That year was amazing. Being friends with him wasnt always easy though; he was picked on a lot. I did my best to stand up for him, but they picked on me for being his friend. I didnt care, he was the one I was friends with before I even started school so I wasnt gonna let some idiots tell me any different.

We walked to and from the bus station everyday. We were always together. We even went to church together, wed sing together. His voice was so amazing. It would make me so calm if I had a bad day. He was great, his family was great. Our parents spent many nights together. The next few years werent so easy. 

Chapter 2

I breezed through sixth and seventh grade fine, but when I went into eighth Clay was in high school. I was lonely, Clay said he was too. I made some new friends, but none of them was anything like him. He cared what I thought and these friends didnt seem to care at all. We still walked to the bus and back, we tried to get up a little earlier to eat breakfast together but Clay was always too lazy. Maybe four times out of the whole year we did that.

Finally the school year was up, and summer of 93 was almost here. I just turned fourteen in April. I was so excited to get out of school. I still wasnt allowed to date, so Clay was my date to everything. We were nothing but friends, neither one of us thought of it as anything else. Clay was the one I went to about the guys I liked, and he came to me about the girls. It was always the same, So you like her? Think shes pretty? Think she really likes me?  He always asked those questions. Well I guess I did the same thing.

He had a few guy friends and one that I thought was hot, his name was Jason. He was the same age as us. He was a tall, dark haired boy with a reputation. Clay liked him ok, but not enough for me to like him. He only really talked to Clay because of his parents; they all went to church together. Clay told me one time that if he ever caught me alone with him he would give me the biggest lecture of my life. I just rolled my eyes at him and laughed. He was so serious though.

The middle of June we both got a job at the same place. This little store that was only open for the summer. It was right across from the pool and Clay would cringe every time he thought about it. After we closed the store I would always go for a swim. Clay would stay and wait for me, with one of our parents. I couldnt wait till one of had our license, so we could do our own thing.

Although the summer went by way to fast, it was ok. I would be in high school, with Clay. Oh Id be a greenie. The first day was so weird, even though I knew how to get around the place, every thing was different. I had one class with Clay and that was choir. Other then that it was boring. Yes I said boring, high school bored me. I couldnt wait for the end of each day. For some reason I met up with some friends that I had in eighth grade and talked to them a lot. They didnt like Clay at all, but I still hung with them. I dont know why, I just did. One of them, Shannon, really couldnt stand him. She would make fun of him like she was ten. Saying the dumbest things about him. Making fun of his hair and his looks. I got so mad every time, but I was still friends with her. That year was the worst year of my life.

Chapter 3

That year I started walking to the bus by myself, and always being there late. So Clay really never had time to ask what was up. I pretty much ignored him that year. I felt bad, but my new friends hated him. I loved Clay as a friend, but I realized hanging out with him was getting me nowhere with the good looking boys in school.

Being a freshman was hard enough, and not having a lot of friends was even harder. Late one afternoon, Clay came over to my house. Shari, Clays here. My mom yelled for me. I slowly made my way to the living area of our house and saw Clay standing there. I walked past him to the front door and stepped outside.

Clay had followed behind me, not to close though. I could hear his footsteps as I walked through the grass to the back yard. I sat down on the bench and waited for him to sit down as well. He never did. He stood right in front of me. I mean no more then a few hairs away. He knelt down on his knees, by this time; I could almost feel his breath on my face. As he looked up at me I saw tears streaming down his face. My heart dropped. I had made him cry. He was my best friend and I made him cry. What kind of a friend was I? I asked myself.

Why do you hate me? Clay asked. I looked away from him; I didnt want to see him cry anymore. Clay I dont hate you. I just, II just dont know. I replied. I closed my eyes, as I felt Clays warm hand on my cheek. I love you, you are my best friend. I dont care if you ever speak to me again, but I have to do this. He said, as he slowly pressed his lips to mine. I responded. Why I dont really know, but I did. His kiss was soft and sweet, I knew how wrong it was and how weird we would be. His kiss got more intense and I got a little frightened. I pushed him away, but his hand stayed on my cheek. Clay, we cant so this. Were only friends, thats all. I have to go. I said as I quickly got up and ran into the house.

The next day at school, I didnt even look at him. I did everything I could to avoid him. Then came choir class. We were doing some really stupid songs, and it was a couple thing. Since I signed up with Clay at the beginning of the year I was stuck with him. As we stood together in front of the class singing, I could hear it in his voice. He was sad, he knew I knew it. I did my best to not pay attention, but it kept messing me up. Come on you two, I know you can do better. Put some heart into it. Our teacher told us. Just then the bell rang, I was so relived.

I went through my next few classes not thinking of Clay at all. Then on the bus, my usual seat was taken, so I had to sit in front of Clay. I could feel him staring a hole through me. I turned around and I was right. He gave me a sad grin, and I turned back and faced the front. Once the bus stopped to let us off, I hurried off the bus. I dropped my book bag, and bent to pick it up. Shari, im sorry for whatever I did to make you not wanna be my friend. Clay said. I grabbed my stuff and ran down our road. I hadnt gotten ten feet when he grabbed my arm and spun me around to him. You can hate me forever and never speak to me again, but when I kissed you last night I wasnt doing it to make you love me. I was doing it to show you how much I loved you. His voice was soft but bold. Clay, im sorry. I just need to be alone now. We can never be anything more then friends, you have to know that. I said. He smiled a little. Good thats all I want. We make the best friends list, not the boyfriend girlfriend list. That would never work. I smiled at him, he was right. I was glad that he thought that way, and I was wrong for being such an ass to him. That kiss last night was just a sweet kiss, nothing more. Oh little did I know.

Chapter 4

I started talking to Clay more at school, and I even walked to the bus with him again. I gave Shannon the kiss my ass thing, and was no longer her friend. She tried to beat me up one day after school, but she didnt make it. Clay and I were best friends again, just like we had always been.

When we got our license we were everywhere. Neither one of us was ever home. We would be at the movies, or the mall. We had a blast. He had his girlfriends and I had my boyfriends, but neither one of us ever seemed to be happy without one another.

We went to the prom together, and did everything as a couple. Even though we were not. Everyone always thought we were so as soon as someone said something we would say Nope just friends. It was fun spending time with Clay. He was a ham thats for sure. He knew how to keep people laughing. We always spent New Years with his family and mine. It was like just something we always did.

Clay waited a year after getting out of high school to go to college. I dont know if he waited on me or if he just wanted to take a year off. When I told him I was going to Charlotte for school he was thrilled. He was going there too. We were studying two different things, but we knew we could be roomies.

Clay and I went and looked for apartments off campus. That was fun, we have such different taste. When they say opposites attract they werent kidding. We were different in so many ways. Some things were ok, but mostly we were two completely different people. We finally settled on a two-bedroom apartment with a balcony. Oh yeah this place also had a pool, which I had to beg for, for three days.

Schools been ok so far, but this year is the hardest. I cant wait till im finished. This is Clays last year as well. We dont see each other a lot lately but its been ok. He will leave little notes on the fridge and ill do the same.

Anyway, back to where I was before. Lately when I do see Clay he seems weird. I thought he had a girlfriend, cause that seems to weird him out sometimes, but I asked he said no. So I asked about school, he said it was fine. When I asked him why he was being so strange to me lately he said he hadnt. In all the years we have been friends, we have never had tension like this. I dont know what it is.

Even though both of us dated a bit, neither was too serious about anyone. We were both virgins, and at 24 thats not an easy thing to say. Sometimes I would watch Clay coming out of the shower in a towel and I would wonder what was underneath. Shame on me huh? Yeah well im human, I know he is too. I really doubt he would ever think that way of me. Besides were only friends, right?

Chapter 5

Hey. I repeated. Clay just sat there. I walked over to him and sat down. What in the world was this guy watching? Clay. I said. He turned and looked at me. Oh hey. He said. I just shook my head. I patted his arm as I stood up. Where ya going? He asked. Ummto take a shower and change. Wanna come? I replied with a silly giggle. He looked at me his eyes wide open, No thats ok, thanks for asking. He said.

I rolled my eyes at him and walked to my room. I picked out some pajama pants and a t-shirt. I took off my shoes and walked to the bathroom. Clay was still sitting on the couch watching TV. He was totally out of it. What was his deal? He was so strange. Oh well, I said to myself as I jumped in the shower.

The shower was nice and hot, I wanted to lay around tonight and not worry about school. Tomorrow would be the same old thing. I got out of the shower and dried myself and got dressed. I walked out of the bathroom and threw my towel in the hamper by the door. Hey when you gonna do some of this laundry? I asked Clay. He looked over at me and shook his head. This shit was getting ridiculous; I have to know what his problem is.

I walked in and sat down next to him once again. This time I wasnt getting up till he told me why he had been acting so weird. I laid my head on his shoulder, Clay, whats wrong with you? Why are you ignoring me lately? I asked. He just sat there silent. I raised my head up and placed my hand on his chin. I turned his head to face me. I asked you a question. Please answer me. I said. His eyes werent the same old green they had always been. There was something he was thinking and he couldnt tell me. Shari, im fine. Would you please stop with this ignore you stuff? He replied. I shot back at him, No I will not. We are best friends here, and I wanna know whats up. So until you tell me, we will stay here like this all night. He looked at me like he so badly wanted to say something but he didnt. Clay. I said. Shari, we are friends, now stop it.

I was kinda shocked. Where did that come from? I knew we were friends he didnt have to tell me that. Duh! I let go of his chin and looked at the TV. I couldnt do this anymore. I wanted to know why he was being so silly. I wanted to know what was keeping him from telling me. I love you. I said. Mmhmm he said. He always said I love you too. I wanted to cry. I knew I was going to so I stood up to go. Thats when his hand stopped me from leaving. I turned around and he was looking up at me.

Chapter 6

He pulled me back down on the couch next to him. Clay. I said. He just stared at me. Come here. He said. I moved closer to him, till his arms were around my neck. Im sorry. I have had a lot on my mind. I didnt mean to take it out on you though. He looked at me with a strange look in his eyes. A look I had never seen from him before. I leaned over to kiss his cheek, like I always did, but this time it was different. His hands stopped my face; he looked at me and gently kissed my lips. Ok im freakin here. Now what?

His kiss was sweet and short. When he pulled away from me he didnt say anything. He didnt even smile. What was that for? I asked. Then he smiled, his eyes were still a different look then before. Because I love you. He said. That made me smile. I couldnt take it anymore. I wanted to kiss him again, this weird feeling was cutting me inside and I had to try. I leaned in and kissed him again, this time our kiss wasnt so short and sweet. It was more passionate, more intense. His tongue pressed against my lips causing my mouth to open to let it inside. For a split second while I was kissing him I forgot he was just my friend. Then reality hit, and it hit hard. What was I doing? Why was I doing it? And whom the hell was I doing it with?

I pulled away and looked at him, I shook my head. We cant do this. Wait what are we doing? I asked. Feels to me like we were kissing. He replied. He looked at me again and thought about what he said. I could just see it in his eyes. A look of confusion, of disbelief. Oh my goodness, im sorry. He said and he quickly stood up and practically ran to his room.

I just sat there, stunned. I was in shock I think. For a moment I was in heaven, then I thought about whom it was with, and I knew it was wrong. Weve been friends too long to mess it up. Even though that kiss was amazing and the best one I had ever had I knew it couldnt happen. Clay was upset; I had to go check on him. I dont know if going in his room right now was a good idea or not, but I had to make sure he was ok.

I walked to his room and slowly opened the door. He was lying on his bed face down, on his belly. I made my way to the side of the bed, and lay down beside him. Hun, are you ok? I asked. He rolled over on his side to face me. His face was red and his eyes were half closed. He looked like he had been crying. Im sorry, I didnt mean to do. He started but I stopped him, Listen, we are adults here. Its ok, it was nice. I didnt expect it either. Besides I kissed you the second time. Remember? I said. He smiled a little. Yeah, I kinda do. It was nice, but Shari I have to tell you something. IIve wanted to do that for along time. I just wasnt sure how to. My jaw dropped. What did he say? He wanted that for along time?

I just looked at him, not saying anything. It was my turn to be silent. I dont want this to mess up anything between us. He said. I shook my head. The more I sat there and looked at him, the more I wanted him. The more I wanted his lips on me again. His tongue in my mouth. I took a deep breath and leaned down to him. He tried to stop me but he couldnt, he wanted it too. Just as badly or ever more then I did. I started kissing him with an intensity that I cant even describe. My hands started moving through his hair and down to his neck. His hands were on my hips as he pulled me on top of him. I didnt know this would be the most amazing night of my life.

Chapter 7

His arms were tightly wrapped around me and his lips were pressed against mine. Once again his tongue was exploring my mouth and mine was his. I didnt know what I was feeling but I knew it was a great feeling. Our kisses started growing, as did Clay. The hardness of him was pressing against my thigh.  I thought about him in the towel again, and how badly I wanted to know what was under it, but at that moment my thoughts were broken.

Hey wait. Clay said as he easily rolled back to his side lifting me off of him. Ok we need to breathe. Well I know I do. He said with a grin. I lay on my back and closed my eyes. Was I ready for this? Was he ready for this? All sorts of questions went through my head. As our breathing calmed, I turned to him. Clay, what was that? What is this? Is this right? I asked. Clay smiled at me the shook his head, What is this twenty questions? Hun, I dont know. It feels right and I think I need to tell you something. He stopped. He sat up on the edge of the bed.

Looking out the window in his room, he softly said, Im in love with you. I mean, I love you. Oh heck, I dont know. The reason I have been so weird is cause I didnt know how you felt. Shari, how do you feel? I opened my eyes and tried to speak but the words wouldnt come out. What? What did he say? Did he ask me something? Was he telling me something? What? I had to calm myself, I was freaking out. This is my best friend, even though I wanted to see what was under that towel when he gets out of the shower dont mean im in love with him. Or was I?

He turned to look at me. Waiting on my answer. I wanted this but I was scared. I think he was too.  What? I asked like a dumb teenager not listening to their parents. I said he started. No I heard what you said, but Clay. Oh I dont know. I love you. Im scared to death, ive never been kissed like that or touched like that and I dont know what to make of it. Is it suppose to feel this good? I was rambling; he could tell I was nervous.

I could feel the warmth from his body as he moved closer to me. His fingers ran across my cheeks to my lips outlining them. I closed my eyes and thought about how great this felt. Why doubt something that feels so right? Could we face each other tomorrow? Could we take on the everyday tasks and not dwell on tasting each other everyday? Maybe thats what youre supposed to do. I didnt know. Clay didnt know. I think ill leave it to fate.

Chapter 8

Well since fate seems awfully busy these days, I figured Id give her a hand. I was tired of not knowing. Who really knows anyway? Right? I placed my hand on his neck and pulled him close to me. I want you, Clay. I said against his lips. He let out a soft moan before kissing me. His lips were hot and wet against mine. I could feel that I was starting to get more excited with each move he made.

He lay down on top of me and his tongue traced over my lips and down to my neck. I have never been kissed there before. The feeling of it gave me chills as I shivered beneath him. His tongue continuded down to my shoulders and across my collarbone. Kissing back up to the hollow of my neck he looked at me. His eyes were deep green and I knew he didnt want to stop. I could feel him pressing through his jeans as he lay on top of me.

I moved my hand to the front of his shirt and slowly undid the first few buttons. I ran my fingers down the exposed skin sending chills down his body this time. He wrapped his arms around my back and pulled me as close to him as possible. I could feel his heart beating against mine. We were moving so fast, I wasnt sure if either of us could stop. I was shaking, and so was Clay. Our bodies yearning for one another. Aching to feel each other, inside as well as out. As I looked up at him I could see the beads of sweat forming on his brow.

He gazed into my eyes for a long time, and then he rolled over again. This time he wrapped me in his arms, I wanna hold you while you sleep. He said. I was shocked. He wasnt ready, not tonight anyway. I took a deep breath, as he spoke again. I have to stop now, or I wont be able too. He pressed his lips to the back of my neck and kissed me once more.

I laid there for the longest time thinking. Thinking about what we were doing. I could hear his soft snores in my ear, and his heat beat against my back. I finally fell asleep. That night I dreamt of everything that had happened. Like it was all just a dream. I didnt want to wake up for fear it wasnt real.

My eyes fluttered open to the light shining through the window. As I looked around I noticed I wasnt in my bed. It hadnt been a dream it was real. I turned over and Clay was lying right there in the same spot as last night. Clay. I said softly. As I looked at him, I could see nothing but good things, his eyelashes were so long, his freckles splashed on his face in just the right amount. You know they call them angel kisses; well he has lots of them. His nose was perfect, his cheeks were a little flushed, and his lips, oh those lips. The same lips that kissed me last night. They were plump and ready for more kissing. I waited for him to wake, but he was still sound asleep. I eased down to him and kissed his lips. Morning baby. I said. His eyes opened and he smiled.

Chapter 9

I think he was a bit surprised to see me lying beside him. Once he remembered what had happened the night before he leaned over and kissed me. What time is it baby? he asked. I looked over at the clock, we were late it was 9am. Oh Hun, we are so late. Its already 9. I said. I tried to hurry off the bed so I could get ready, but he pulled me back down to him. Its too late to go now. Stay here with me. We can spend all day together. He smiled. In bed? I asked grinning at him. He looked at me with those beautiful green eyes and an evil smirk. Thats what I had in mind. He wrapped his arms around me and kissed my neck. How about you let me jump in the shower, and ill be back. I told him. He nodded.

I made my way to the bathroom, brushed my teeth and jumped in the shower. I kept replaying all the things from last night in my head. I wanted this. I wanted Clay. He seemed to really want me. My thoughts were broken as I heard him knock  Hey can I please use the bathroom? he said cracking the door open. Sure. I said as I heard him open the door completely. Feel good? he asked as he was using the toilet. Yeah feels nice. Nice and hot. I replied. Dont tease me. Id hate to have to throw you out and take the shower over. I laughed, he was nuts. I listened as he made he was out of the bathroom and I stepped out.

I dried off and brushed my hair. I had forgotten to get my clothes out so I wrapped the towel around me and tiptoed to my room. I quickly found a pair of Clays sport shorts that I had stole from him long ago and a tight white t-shirt. I heard him moving around in the kitchen so I walked out to find him cooking breakfast. He never cooked breakfast, did he even know how? I asked myself. What you makin baby? I asked. He turned to me and smiled, Well if this dont work out ill be makin ya cereal. I laughed.  I tried to help him but he sent me to bed. I went pouting.

After about ten minutes of lying in his bed, I saw him walking toward me with a tray of food. Wow, what do we have here? I asked checking out what was on the tray. There were eggs, toast, bacon, two apples, two bananas, and two glasses of OJ. A lot of food I thought. This looks yummy baby. Sit. I patted the bed beside me. We sat and ate in silence. He was so sweet to make this for me. I wonder why he hadnt done it before. Is it good? he asked licking his lips. I leaned over and kissed him letting my tongue wonder into his mouth. As I pulled away I rolled my tongue over my lips, Mmm, yes its delicious. He laughed and rolled his eyes. As we continued eating all I could think about was what a great guy he was. I knew first hand. I wanted to know what kind of lover Clay would be. I would soon find out.

Chapter 10

After we finished eating, Clay took the tray to the kitchen. As he walked back into the room he jumped on the bed as close to me as he could. Almost knocking me off of it. CLAY. I shouted. Oh whats the matter baby, think I might toss you out of bed? No chance. He said as he kissed my cheek. Ive been waiting to long to get you in it, im not gonna throw you out.  His lips traced along the nap of my neck, and then back up to my lips. Before kissing them he closed his eyes, I love you. Then he let his lips touch mine. I opened my mouth just enough for his tongue to maneuver in. His fingers were running up and down my sides. The feeling of his touch was amazing.

I responded to every kiss even more then the last. I wanted him; I wanted him to be my first. I wanted to be his. I could feel myself become more excited then I have ever been in my life. His body was lying on top of me, and his hands roamed freely over my body. I let my hands run through his hair, on his neck and down his back. I took slow soft strokes as I made my way to the front of his shirt. This time it was just a t-shirt. No buttons to fool with. I slowly ran my fingers over it on his chest. I could feel his nipples and I let my hand fall down to his belly.

I slid my fingers under his shirt; I could feel the hair that was there. Moving up to his belly button I could feel him shiver. I slowly lifted his arms as I took off his shirt. Lying there on top of me was this gorgeous piece of work. This was going to happen, I wanted this to happen. He was my best friend, but after today he would be so much more. I wanted us to work, and I was certain we could. I think Clay thought the same. He must have wanted this for along time, cause he didnt hesitate to get me in this spot.

His lips were plump and I wanted so badly to just stare at them. On the other hand I wanted them to taste all of me. With every kiss, his tongue would touch me. Our kisses werent out of control, not yet anyway. They were still sweet passionate kisses. I felt his hands find there way to the bottom of my shirt as his fingertips traced over my tummy. Inch by inch he eased it up, higher and higher till my breast were almost exposed. His tongue went down my neck, and to my shoulders kissing through the fabric. He made his way to my belly button and let me know he was definitely there. His tongue traced back up, and came to a halt at my already hardened nipples still covered by the thin fabric. I thought he was going to take them in his mouth, but instead he came back up and kissed my lips. He was teasing me.

Chapter 11      

Looking up at him, I could see that he wanted me as badly as I wanted him. His body was pressed firmly against me; I could feel his arousal on my thigh. It felt large and satisfying. I watched as his fingers touched my face, then moved down my body to parts I didnt even know I could be turned on by. His very touch sent chills through my body. His eyes were electric green and struck with passion. His breath was hot and heavy. Our hearts were beating fast, and we were shaking.

He did things to me with his touch that made me want to scream with desire. I let out a few small moans, enough to let him know I was enjoying every moment. He would look at me as if he was asking for approval, and when he saw I was over taken by him he would continue. Even though he was a virgin, he sure knew what he was doing. His lips were stressing on my neck, as the sensation of his tongue sent a tremble over me.

His fingertips ran over my tummy again, this time he lifted my shirt. Only to expose my breast completely. He took in a deep breath, so did I. Clay let his tongue ease its way down my breast to my hard nipples. Taking one at a time in his mouth, he slowly licked, sucked and nibbled on them. I could feel myself growing wetter with every move he made. Every touch, every kiss, was like a new one. He kissed every part of my breast, not leaving one spot untouched with his hot mouth. I ran my fingers through his hair as he brought his face back up to mine.

I wanted to kiss him, all over. I slowly pushed him off of me and laid myself on top of him. I began by kissing his forehead, then his cheeks, lips, chin, down to his chest, his nipples, his belly and I stopped at the waistline of his pants. I slowly tugged with the button on them, as he ran his fingers through my hair and over my bareback. I eased down the zipper and pushed his pants down just a bit. Enough to see his shorts underneath. They were a blue and green color, I grinned as I looked up at him. He smiled, Like them? he asked. I giggled and shook my head. I had bought them for him for his birthday last year. I didnt know then that I would ever be this close to them.

Chapter 12

I started kissing the hair that led me down to his treasures. I pulled up on the waist of his shorts only to release the elastic and let it bounce back. Mmmm. He replied. I let my fingertips slid inside the top of them just enough for him to buck his hips up and try to make my hand go further inside. I moved my hand and raised my eyebrows to him. He smiled.

Moving back up to his chest, I ran my hands through the hair there. Slowly making my way back up to his lips. I planted little kisses all over the upper part of his body. There were now beads of sweat on his brow as he laid back and watched me touch, lick, suck, and kiss him. His hands moved over my body as I lifted and finally took my shirt completely up and over my shoulders. Even though he had my breast exposed a bit ago, it made him react like he had just saw them for the first time. As he rolled me over on my back he took a deep breath and caressed my hard nipples with his thumb and index finger.

I moaned against his ear, pressing my lips hard against it. I ran my hands through his hair and down to his sweaty neck. As I let my lips follow my hand, the sweat on his neck was salty on my lips and tongue. I stayed in that place for sometime. Making my presence known. I was starting to wonder if he noticed. I think he was too aroused to notice much of anything; his tongue was kept near my breast and nipples. He seemed to be enjoying himself with them.

Each time he would nibble on my nipples I would arch back. Letting it sink further in his mouth. His sucking became harder and harder each time as I let out moan after moan. I could smell the slight sent of his cologne on his neck, and I did my best to take in as much as I could. Kind of like this would be the last time it would ever happen. I didnt know if it would be but I wanted to make sure I got as much of him as I could.

I felt his hand on my shorts, as he lifted my body and eased them down just a little. Enough to expose the hair above my crotch. Letting his fingers slip inside just a little, and eased them down even more. I didnt want him to stop, I wanted him to touch me forever, and it didnt matter where it was. His hands completely pulled my short off; he didnt miss a beat as they feel to the floor. I wasnt wearing any panties and I think that surprised him totally.

He pulled himself up to me and kissed my lips. Are you ok? he asked. I opened my eyes and looked at him. I was ready, oh so ready for him. Yes, Clay. Im ok baby, dont stop. He kissed me once more before he let his fingers run down to the inside of my thighs. I knew he could feel the wetness of me beneath him. His fingers slowly moved further and further up my thigh. I could almost feel him.

Chapter 13

His long slender fingers ran over the top of my hot wetness. Slowly he touched my hot spot with the tips of his fingers. His lips pressed firmly against mine as he explored my body. He was shaking the whole time, so was I. His breath on my skin was enough to make me go crazy. I reached my hand down to him and pushed his pants down a little further letting his hardness release from them. The only thing that was between us was those blue green shorts.

Our kissing never stopped as he slowly moved his hand back up. I tried to push his shorts off but he wouldnt let me. He took on hard push and they were on the floor next to all the other clothes piled below us. There was now nothing between us. Our bodies were hot, both of us sweating with desire for one another. His eyes were mint green, and his skin a milky white. Those little splashes of freckles that lay on his face were much less noticeable now. His face was flushed, his ears were red.

His body lying on top of me as we continued to kiss each other. Our hands wondering freely all over our bodies. I felt his hand move down slowly under me. He took himself in his hands and guided up to my more then eager wetness. He gently pushed himself inside me. I let out a small moan, mixed of pleasure and pain. His body stopped. He looked at me with those eyes, Alright? he asked. I nodded. I couldnt close my eyes. I watched as this man moved on top of me.

His hips moved in a circular motion as he made me moan over and over. His lips feel to my neck, and back up again to my lips. He never stopped kissing me. He began to thrust a little harder each time. Making sure I was ok, he kept looking at me. He was so sexy lying on top of me. The sweat from his brow was dripping down on my nose. I smiled.

His body started to tremble, as he throbbed inside of me. I could feel every pulse every movement he made. His kisses became harder as did his thrusts. I was feeling something I had never in my life experienced, a feeling of release. I could feel myself letting go. I was falling over the edge. At that very moment I felt as Clay let loose too. His body fell completely on mine. Still inside me, he kissed my lips, my cheeks, my chin, and my neck. He lifted his head up just enough to look into my eyes. One more time? he asked smiling. I just laughed.

Chapter 14

He snuggled his head in my neck and kissed it. I saw him grinning as he turned on his side to face me. I was amazed. We had just crossed the limit. Crossed a barrier, a fence that had never been crossed. I enjoyed every moment of it. I started to feel somewhat shy being completely naked in the presence of my best friend. I quickly grabbed the blankets and covered my naked body.

Are you cold? he asked. I nodded, shivering a little so he would think I was really cold. He threw his arm over my and held on. Do you regret this? I asked looking up at the white ceiling. He waited a minute before he spoke. Then he let out a breath and whispered. No, not at all. He took another deep breath before he rose up to look at me. Do you? I closed my eyes and smiled. I havent regretted anything since the day I met you. Thats why we have been best friends. So no I dont regret this. I surely dont regret kissing you the second time.  I winked and he smiled getting as close to me as he could.

The time had flown by; it was already 6 pm. Wow what an awesome day, im glad I woke up late. We stayed cuddled together for a few more hours just talking. Talking about everything, about how this started, how long each of us had wanted one another. We laughed, cried, and were serious at so many different things. We learned new things about one another, even though we thought we knew it all. He told me that he thought I was beautiful from the moment he saw me. I told him he was crazy and he tackled me. He was so loving and sweet all the time. Even when he was trying to tickle me or making the silliest faces.

Im going to take another shower. I said rising up from the bed. Hey. I turned to look at him, Can I take you up on that invite you gave me last night? he said with a sly grin. I smiled and looked down. If ya wanna. I think I like the idea of slippery when wet. I started laughing. He got me back down on the bed and crawled on top of me. He kissed my lips gently as he lifted up and smiled. Lets go. I got up and followed his naked body to the bathroom.

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When I reached the shower, Clay had the water running. The steam was already overtaken the entire room. I decided that I would wait till he got out to take one myself. When he asked if I was getting in I told him I will when he got finished. I just wanted to take it alone and think about what had happened. This was very important to me. He just stuck his head out and asked for a kiss. I went over to look at myself in the mirror, but with the water being so hot it was steamed up. I wrote on the mirror with my finger Clay and Shari, Always.

Clay got out and I quickly jumped in. Kissing him on my way. As the water ran down me, I remembered every touch, every feel, and every kiss. It was all about Clay, everything that he did made me feel wanted and loved. I craved for more, from the time his body left mine. Since my mind was all about Clay I had forgotten one small detail about the weekend coming up. I had a date. Ugh. Now I have to call and cancel it.

I stepped out of the shower just as Clay was putting on his shorts. Hey beautiful. He said as he handed me a towel. Hey. I smiled at him. His glasses covered his eyes and he looked so cute with his hair all wet. So wanna watch a movie? he asked throwing a shirt over his head. Sure, but I have to make a call first. I replied.

I threw the towel around me and headed for my bedroom. I picked up the phone and dialed. Mike, hey its ShariIm great you? Thats good. I have some bad news, I cant make it to that date tomorrowno I just remembered its my best friends birthdayok talk to you laterbye.  With that I hung up and turned to see Clay smiling in the doorway. So you have a best friend with a birthday tomorrow, huh? he said laughing. I rolled my eyes, Yeah hes a little shit, now get out and let me change. I said reaching to close the door. He wouldnt move so I just stood there staring at him. What? I asked. His smile had turned into an evil grin. WHAT? I repeated. He grabbed me and kissed my neck. Clay hunny, stop if you wanna watch a movie. His touch was soft and his kisses were tender.

His lips slide back up to my cheek as he softly whispered against it, I wanna make this day last forever, I love you. I smiled; he was always so gentle and romantic. I love you too. He looked back at me and turned to leave. Hey. I said as he turned to look at me. Find us a good movie ok, and I wanna watch it in your room. He winked and walked out leaving me alone to get dressed.

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I walked to the kitchen to get me a drink when I heard Clay yelling for me. Shari, I got everything. Come on get in here. I shook my head and headed toward his room. I walked in a saw a bowl of popcorn and two big glasses of tea. He had made a spot for me right in the middle of the bed. I smiled and hopped in. He reached over and kissed my cheek as he hit play on the DVD player.

What we watchin? I asked. He smiled and kinda laughed, Bringin Down The House. Is that ok? I giggled a little and nodded. As the movie started I watched as they instant messaged one another. Then they finally met. Steve Martin and Queen Latifia were a trip. I think we laughed so hard both of us were crying. One of the funniest parts is where he wakes her up and she yells Who dat? Who there? we were rolling. If you wake me up, ill be like that. I said to Clay laughing so hard I almost peed myself. Ok then. Ill never wake you up, EVER. I need to keep my things you know. I thought I was gonna die of laughter.

When the movie was over, my tummy hurt so bad from laughing. I thought I was gonna be sick. Clay turned to me and giggled, You ok? You look a little pale. I hit his shoulder and laughed even more. I didnt realize you could almost die from laughing so hard. At one point I almost chocked on my popcorn. Clay tried to give me the heimlich, but that made it worst.

After we both calmed down a bit, I sat up and looked at him. He was smiling like I had never seen him smile before. What are you smiling about there Mr. Aiken? I asked. His smiled became even bigger then before. Im smiling at you. You are so cute when you snort. My eyes widened. I DID NOT SNORT. He laughed. Oh yes you did. I got on top of him and grabbed his hands. I DID NOT. I shouted. He tilted his head so I wouldnt scream in his ear. Whatever you say missy. I put on a serious face and huffed my way off the bed. You just wait. I did NOT snot. I walked into my room and grabbed a pillow from my bed.

I walked back to Clays room but he wasnt there. Clay? I called. No answer. Clay? Where did you go? I yelled. I walked in his room and looked around. When I turned toward the door I saw Clay running as fast as his long legs would let him. He was running right toward me. He never stopped till he had run into me throwing me on the bed. CLAY. OH MY GOD. GET OFF ME. Once again we were laughing out of control. Then he stopped. Ok you snorted. Now kiss me you little piggy. He said laughing. Oink Oink baby. I cried. I leaned up to kiss him and the laughing completely stopped. We could have fun and be serious at the same time. I loved it.

Chapter 17

Clays kiss became a little harder, and his touch wasnt as gentle as before. He wanted me, it was the one thing I could tell, or see in his eyes. His eyes were electric green and his face was flushed. I let him devour my mouth, as his tongue danced inside it. My fingers ran through his hair, and down his back. I lifted his t-shirt over his head and tossed on the floor. His hands this time did more exploring then before. But I wanted to explore him.

I looked at him and saw him looking at me, kissing me with his eyes open. I was in a different world; I had just realized that those were the most amazing and sexy kisses ever. Clay, I want to taste you. I whispered against his lips. He gladly rolled over on his back and let me on top of him. I started at the top of his head, kissing his hair, then his forehead. I reached his eyes and kissed each one softly. I took my time with his cheeks and nose, making him giggle a little, as I ran my tongue over the tip of it. When I reached his swollen lips I stopped to look at him. He was so relaxed and so mesmerized by my touch. I licked his lips with my tongue and kissed him gently. I made my way to his chin and kissed the little bit of hair from his 5oclock shadow there. When I got to his neck I slowed my pace even more. I loved his neck. The smell of him was intoxicating. I wanted to stay there as long as he would let me. I ran my tongue on both sides of his neck. I stopped on his Adams apple as placed little kisses there. Clays moans were light but as I moved down they would get stronger, and louder.

My hands followed my mouth, wherever I would kiss my hand would trace over. I kissed down his chest, to his nipples. I bit each one gently and sucked a little. Moving down to his tummy, I found his belly button. He has the cutest one I have ever seen. Its an innnie and I love letting my tongue slid in and out of it. Clay seemed to enjoy it as well. I made my way to the waistband of his shorts and gave them a little tug. I could feel his arousal stressing to be released. I kissed his hardness through his shorts as his moans became more urgent. Please, take them off. He said. I did as he asked. I removed his shorts and threw them on the floor.

I slid my hand up his shaft, then back down again. Slow long strokes. I got close enough to it to blow a few short breaths. Teasing him, taunting him. He was craving for my mouth to be around it. I slowly slid my tongue starting at the bottom and then up to the top. His hips bucked causing him to thrust inside my mouth. His fingers entangled in my hair, I pressed my lips harder around him. My tongue moving all over his hardness. The louder he moaned the deeper I put him in my mouth. Shari, I. With that said, he released inside my mouth. A warm liquid filled it. I quickly swallowed and looked up at him. He was in autopilot when he reached for the glass of tea to give me drink. I took a sip and ran my fingers back up to his cheeks. I kissed his lips as he was turning me over to lie on top of me.

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His eyes met mine, and his body heaved on top of me. Clays lips pressed on mine, and his tongue found its way back inside my mouth. I wanted to have him inside me again; I knew that this time it would be so much better then last time. Even though we werent in any hurry, I couldnt wait. I loved having a part of him in me. I wanted to let him have all of me.

Clays fingers ran through my hair, and his right leg moved to spread my legs apart. He was now lying between my legs. I could feel him getting hard again. He raised my shirt up and over my head, immediately letting his tongue tease my nipples. His tongue trailed down to my tummy, then to the top of my shorts. He quickly removed them and noticed once again that I didnt have any panties on. Im gonna buy you some panties. This is killing me. He said. I laughed.

His tongue ran over my waist, then down to my inter thigh. His hands werent far behind. He kissed the top, and the back of each leg. His lips touched my entire leg, all the way down to my toes. I had chills all over my body. I think he noticed cause he looked up and me and grinned. I closed my eyes when his tongue traced back up to my enter thigh, then to my wetness down below. I was so wet for him.

I let out a loud moan, and arched my back. I moved the pillow from my head and arched back even more. I wanted all of me in his mouth. His tongue circled to the inside, and I felt his hot breath. I was in a different state then I had ever been in my life. His mouth devoured me. He circled my clit and sucked it softly then harder. With every move I would let out a cry of pleasure I wanted him to make me come. I wanted him to know what he was doing to me.

His tongue thrust inside me and I could feel my self-falling over the edge. Clay pressed his finger inside me and my body moved with the rhythm of his thrust. Finally I let loose, I came in his mouth, and he was amazed. He looked up and me smiled, I could see that he was proud of himself. He lifted his body to me, and I felt that he was harder then before.

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Kissing my lips and gently tugging on my bottom one, he whispered. You taste so good. Like strawberries. I closed my eyes, and took in a deep breath. His body was full on me, and I guided my hand between our bodies to stoke him. Slowly at first then a little faster.

His hand stopped me, and brought it back up around his neck. He continued kissing me and caressing me with his lips and tongue. I wanted him so badly; I wanted to feel him inside me again. My legs already spread and him lying between them made me want it even more. I want you. I whispered. He let out a slight moan and pressed his body harder on me.

He slowly eased his hardness inside me. God it felt so good. I could feel him pulsing already. He slid inside me a little deeper each time. Taking his time, making sure not to come to fast. The heaviness of his body on top of me, made me ache for more of him. Our kisses became urgent, and our hands wondered all over each others bodies.

His fingers traced over my neck and ears. Our lips parted and he buried his head in my hair. I could hear and feel his breath on my skin. His moans were raspy, and low. Every thrust was harder and I was almost screaming in pleasure. I was almost embarrassed. I was quickly finding the edge all over again. It felt like a steady stream when your walking by the river, then it became more intense, like a huge waterfall.

He knew how close I was and I think he was thankful. He was about to explode. I let myself fall into him, I lay almost totally froze beneath him. Then he came, I could feel it this time. I could feel how deep he was inside my hot walls. The feeling of him made me want to lie there and never move. His body was completely on top of me, and his head was still buried in my hair against my neck.

I kissed the back of his neck lightly, before I shifted my body a little. You know how good that felt? I asked. He looked up at me and smiled, Yeah I know baby. He said as he kissed me. We fell asleep just like that. He was still inside me, and his body still on mine.

Chapter 20

Waking up the next morning, I found I was no longer in Clays arms. I looked at the clock and it read 7 am. I eased myself out of bed and walked to my room, picking up my clothes on the way out. I didnt hear anything as I walked pass the bathroom, so I had no idea where Clay had gone.

I grabbed some clothes and took them to the bathroom. I brushed my teeth and took a quick shower. It felt so refreshing. Once I was out and dried off, I put on my clothes for the day. Another school day. Ugh. I walked toward the kitchen to get me some OJ and a Krispy Kreme. As I was about to open the refrigerator door, I saw a little note with my name on it. I took off the magnet that was holding it up and read.

Shari,

            Sorry I had to leave you this morning. You looked so peaceful lying there I didnt want to wake you. I have an early class. I know you wont be home till late, but id like to have dinner with you tonight. Ill take care of everything, but you need to come with an empty belly. I dont know how to say this, but making love to you is the most amazing thing that has ever happened to me. I love you; I always have and always will. Thanks for always being there. I have so much to talk to you about tonight. A few things you dont know. Even though we have been best friends and ive never kept anything from you, theres one thing I forgot. Dont freak out, its not bad. Well its not for me anyway. Have a wonderful day, dont come home stressed id hate to have to take care of that for ya. Hehehe! Talk to you tonight.

                                                            Love, Clayton

I smiled as I read the note over a few times. I grabbed my breakfast, my bad and keys. I was off to another stressful, school day.

Chapter 21

I made my way to school, and went on to my classes. The day seemed to go by so slow. I couldnt wait to get home and see Clay. I thought about him all day. My first class was boring, and the next three to follow was just as bad. So starting the day like that makes a person with they had stayed in bed.

As I was walking out to my car I was stopped when a hand grabbed my from behind. It was Mike. He looked happy. Hey, so how did the birthday party go? he asked. I had to think quickly, I had totally forgot about telling him that. Oh it was great. Lots of people. Wow, im such a liar. He smiled, So would you be available for dinner this weekend? I looked up at him, he was very handsome. With big brown eyes and dark hair. Nothing at all like Clay. Im not sure. Ill have to see how this week goes. I replied. We said our goodbyes and I jumped in the car and headed home.

It was nearly 7 when I arrived. I did as Clay asked and my belly was telling me again that I should have eaten lunch. Here I am with an empty belly and no one home to feed me. It didnt look as if Clay had been home at all yet. I ran to my room and changed my clothes. I wasnt stressed out too bad today, but if Clay wanted to help me with it anyway, then I was ALL stressed out.

I laughed to myself as I thought about yesterday and the night before. It had been a wonderful experience for both him and me. I made my way to the kitchen to grab a soda, when I saw yet another note on the fridge. I pulled it off and read.

Shari,

            Hey Hun, ill be home in a bit. Im sorry im not there to kiss you when you walk in the door. I have something for you when I get home. NO SNOOPING. You have to wait. I hope your still hungry, and I hope today was a good day for you. Talk to you in a while.

                                                            Love, Clayton

I smiled as I read it. No snooping, huh? Well, I wouldnt have thought about it at all if he hadnt opened his big mouth. I shook my head and laughed. I headed for the couch to watch some TV. I really hope he gets home soon, im starving here.

Chapter 22

I was watching TV when I started dozing off. I was just about asleep completely when I heard the front door open. I looked over at the VCR to see the time was about 10pm. I stood up and walked to the kitchen. Clay was standing there putting some stuff in the fridge. Hey Hun. I said as I reached to kiss the back of his neck. He jumped a little as he turned around. He wrapped his arms around me and buried his head in the nap of my neck.

Are you ok baby? I asked. He didnt move his head from my neck, but I heard him whisper. Im sorry im late. My class ran way over. Mostly I missed you. I smiled at his response. He raised his head up to me, and looked in my eyes. He looked completely drained. He leaned down and kissed me. His kiss was soft and gentle. He was in no rush for anything tonight, he was too tired. Why dont you go get a shower baby? Ill fix us something to eat. I told him. He never took his eyes off me. No I told you I was. I stopped him. I said, go take a shower. Its fine. I can cook you know. He smiled and kissed me again before walking to his room.

I started looking for stuff to cook. I decided on something very simple. Mac and cheese, and a bologna sandwich. There was no way I was gonna cook something big. He was way to wore out to eat much anyway. I finished cooking and headed to the couch with the dinner tray. As I sat down, Clay was walking out of his room. His hair was still wet and he looked a little more rested.

Come sit, we can watch a movie. I said patting the couch. He sat down and leaned over to kiss me. Nice dinner. He said with a grin. I stuck out my tongue and made a face. He shook his head as he started eating. So, what was the surprise I read about? I said looking over at him, wiping some bread off the side of his mouth. He smiled at me and shrugged his shoulders.

My mouth dropped open, as if I was in shock at his reaction. Youll get it. Just be patient. He said. We continued to eat and watch TV in silence. As I was getting up to take our tray back in the kitchen, he pulled me back down to him. Want your surprise now? he asked looking at me with a sly grin. My smile was huge. I didnt want to seem over eager. Nah, thats ok. His grin faded, Well then. Forget it. I started laughing. Of course I want it silly. Where is it? I asked. He took my hand and pulled me to the bedroom. I had no idea what he had on his mind.

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I walked to the bedroom behind him, with him pulling my hand. He told me to sit down on the bed and close my eyes. So I did. I heard him digging in a plastic bag, before he told me to hold out my hand. He took my hand in his and put something silky like in them. Ok open your eyes. He said giggling. I opened my eyes, and looked at what was in my hands. Oh my god, Clay. Your crazy. There was a pair of black silk thongs. I told you I was gonna take care of that. Theres more where that came from, but you cant have them yet. I hugged him and laughed.

So you gonna let me see them on you now or do I have to wait? He grinned. I looked at him with a sly smile, I think ill make you wait. He just shrugged. Ok then, lets go cuddle up on the couch. I shook my head. Ok I need to use the restroom first. I walked to the bathroom, and of course had to put on my new panties. I hated these things. If Clay liked them so be it. Walking out of the bathroom, I saw Clay running his fingers through his hair.

Why dont you let me fix your hair? I asked. Oh yeah ok, and paint my toes while your at it? I dont think so. He said laughing. I hit his arm, Come on, Please. I said kneeling on the floor in front of him. Get up goofy. Unless you have other plans down there. I got up and sat beside him. We started watching TV, and he still hadnt answered me. So can I? I asked. He looked at me and rolled his eyes. I guess. NO you can not paint my toes or my fingers, but you can fix my hair. I smiled and stood up to get the brush the comb the hairspray and the flatiron I used to straighten my hair.

When I walked back in the living room, Clay was sitting on the floor against the couch. You can sit up here. Wait, what do you need that thing for? he asked pointing at the flatiron. Im gonna try something, and your gonna sit there and like it. I said plugging in the iron. I ran the brush through his hair first then the comb. When the iron was hot, I took pieces of his hair in my hands and straightened it. When I was finished ironing his entire head, I sprayed it a little. It was standing up all over. I pulled the hair apart, and laid some down. I put some over his ears, and ran the comb over the hair on the back so it would be sorta laying down more then the rest.

Ok look at me. I told him. He turned to look at me. I reached and took off his glasses and just stared. What? Do I look that bad? he asked grabbing his glasses and running for the bathroom. Wait baby. I yelled as I ran behind him. As he looked in the mirror, he almost smiled. I think he liked it. Well, this is different. Defiantly wild. I smiled. Like it? I asked. He nodded a little. Yeah, not bad, but I cant do that. I walked over behind him and wrapped my arms around his waist. I was looking at him in the mirror too. He looked so hot. Ill do it for you every morning, if youll let me. I said smiling. Ok, I think thats ok. He replied.

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I walked back in the living room and lay down on the couch. I made sure I unplugged the iron, and I had. There was some kind of music show on TV, like the AMAs or something, so I started watching it. Clay had returned from admiring his spiked up hair and plopped down on the couch beside me. I lifted my legs and draped them over his. As I watched the screen, I could feel his eyes wondering up and down my body. I ignored it. Slowly and gently I felt his hands move to my waist. I continued to ignore him. He eased my pants down just a bit to see if I had on his surprise. I did. He laughed.

Hey watch it there. Im into this show. Get off me. I said as he began to tickle my tummy. He was being so silly and sweet and sexy at the same time. Take off your glasses. I said as I rose up to him. Why? You know I cant see without them. I shook my head and reached for them myself. I pulled them off and sat the on the coffee table in front of us. Look at me Clay. I said. He did, and I saw the most amazing site I think I ever had. His eyes glowed with a little embarrassment, and his face turn the lightest shade of red.

You so gorgeous. You know it? I said. He closed his eyes, and shook his head. I always knew he was cute, but hot? Clay Aiken hot? Not my Aiken. But this was a totally different man sitting beside me. Can I have my glasses back now? he asked. Not yet, let me look at you a while. You can close your eyes if you have to, but I wanna see you. He smiled then looked at me. You never cease to amaze me. You can always see something good. I laughed at him. He was being so innocent and my thoughts were far from innocent.

Im not sure something good was what I had in mind. I laughed. He raised his eyebrows to me. Oh really? he asked. Yes really. So. I leaned over and kissed his neck. So? he took in a deep breath. Yeah, soyou wanna see what your surprise looks like on the rack? I asked giggling. Without answering he was up and pulling me behind him to his room. He stopped and looked at me. Why do we always go to my room? he smiled. Just go Clay. I said as I turned him around and pushed him toward his door.

Chapter 25

As we hit his room, he plopped down on the bed. I followed behind him doing the same. This was like we know we want it, so lets just do it sorta thing. It was a bit awkward at first, but when his lips touched my neck it wasnt anymore. He slowly took my pants and threw them to the floor. Wow, those are hot. He said. You could hear the excitement in his voice. I smiled as I watched him examine them. His hands ran over the top of my panties and he instructed me to turn over. I did.

His hand slid up my legs then to my bottom, then over the V shape that the thongs made. Running his hand underneath my shirt, he slid it up. My back was bare and his hands roamed freely over my behind. I could feel his breath get closer as I finally felt his lips touch the back of my knee. I jerked a little from the feeling. It felt so nice. His lips continued up to the back of my thigh, then to my bottom. Once he got to the V of the thongs, he grabbed it with his teeth. I could feel them dig inside me from the front.

Take them off Clay. I begged. Not yet. He whispered. His lips still on my behind, and his hands finding their way under my body to my hot spot. His hand lay firmly on my crotch, as he moved it slowly. Massaging, caressing. I closed my eyes, and could feel his heat on me. His lips made their way up to my back, and to my neck. He kissed my cheek, as he began to turn me over.

Kiss me. He said. I did, his lips were red and plump. I nibbled a little at his bottom lip, and his tongue darted in and out of my mouth. These were kisses that you never wanna stop. The heat between us was irrelevant. He could feel me and I could feel him. He pulled my shirt over my head, and kissed his way down to my already hardened nipples. Twirling each one with his tongue, he sent chills down my spine. He let his face fall to my neck, and his lashes gazed it. Those butterfly kisses he gives are a killer.

His fingers ran back down to my panties, letting one finger slid under the silky fabric. He slowly slid them down as he watched every move his own hand made. Once they were completely off my body, he moved his body back up to mine. His kisses became more urgent, and he pressed himself against me. I could feel the extreme hardness threw his pants. I reached to push them down and he let me.

I ran my fingers up his tummy, and took pride in touching his happy trail. He was so amazingly sexy. His hair a bit messier then before, but it still looked perfect. His glasses off, his eyes were even greener then the other times. The lust in his eyes was impossible to miss. His cheeks were slightly flushed and his lips were pinker then before. I considered it a joy to kiss those lips. Why in all the years we had been friends we hadnt done this Ill never know.

Chapter 26

He looked up at me and his eyes locked with mine. I had that funny feeling in my tummy, like a nervous feeling almost. Shari, I love you. I think we need to slow this down a bit. He said as he rolled himself off me. I took in a deep breath, and had to focus on what he had just told me. We need to slow down. I didnt know why. I was almost afraid to ask.

I lay there looking at the ceiling before I said anything. I thought very hard before I spoke. Why? I started. Why now? After all that. He placed his finger over my lips to hush me. I cant think of anything or anyone else id rather be doing, but this is getting out of hand. This is all we seem to do. I wanna be with you, but it seems to me like its all sex. I dont want you to think that I love you for just this. He told me. I let out a sigh. Clay, I know you love me. I know its not just for sex. Surely to God, you know that. I got up from the bed and made my way to the bathroom for a hot shower. I couldnt think of anything else to say. I was broken hearted. I was a hurt. What he said was pretty much that I thought he was using me for sex.

I got in the shower and let the hot water run over me. I cried. I let the tears fall and I knew I had to face him sooner or later. He knew he broke my heart. I felt sorta good about one thing. That he was man enough to say something like that. Hell, couldnt he see I was enjoying myself with him? Everything was great, I thought. I closed my eyes as I thought about every word he said. His words went through my mind over and over.

I opened my eyes and jumped a bit. Clay was standing in front of me. In the shower, with boxers and a t-shirt on. I laughed. He looked so cute, but kinda dumb. Whats so funny? he asked looking down at himself. Your going to mess up your hair. I replied. He walked toward me and put his arms around me. Im wearing this cause if I dont I wont be able to get too close. He said as he moved back from me. I just looked at him. Why are you in here? he grinned abit before answering. Im here so I can tell you what I meant about a while ago. I stared at him waiting for him to explain. Well, first off I want to apologize for saying what I said and not explaining myself. Second, I do love you and I love more than anything to be with you. I think we need a break from that and be a real couple. I smiled. He was so sweet. He really didnt mean it the way I took it. I love you too. I guess I thought maybe it was me. I said. I wrapped my arms around him, and thought about starting this over. So do we start over? I asked. Um, NO. Im not saying that we wont ever make love again, but right now I wanna take a break. I mean we need to take a break. He replied. I smiled and kissed him.

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We stayed in the shower till the water ran cold. He was still dressed, and he even helped me bathe. He was so cute, but it was all strange. It was like I was allowed to be naked but he wasnt. It was weird. We got out of the shower, and I dried off and went to my room to change. Clay stayed behind to get out of his wet clothes and do the same.

After changing into my pajamas I walked into the kitchen for a drink. I grabbed a coke out of the fridge and took a sip. Hey, I want that. Clay said taking the can from my hand. I just shook my head and laughed. Im going to bed. I love you, see you in the morning. I said as I kissed his cheek and headed to my room. Wait. He started. I turned around to look at him and his eyes had a little bit of sadness in them. I still want you to sleep in my room, with me. He said. I smiled. No I think its better that I sleep in my own bed tonight. Dont get me wrong Clay, I love sleeping in your arms, but I need to sleep alone tonight. He looked down at his feet then back up at me. Okay. I love you. He said pulling me into a kiss. It was a sweet kiss. He released me and I went to my room.

I flopped down on the bed, and buried myself in my covers. It was nice being in my own bed. It was warm, and cozy. I had the radio on so I didnt have to hear any outside noise. The song that was playing was I Know How The River Feels by Diamond Rio. I loved that song. Clay had made a demo cd after he got out of high school and that was one he sang. I couldnt help but smile thinking about it. I jumped up out of bed and ran over to my cd player. I searched around till I found his demo and pushed play. Listening to his voice made me sleep better. I finally let myself drift off to dream.

The next morning I woke to the sound of my stupid alarm clock going off in my ear. I knocked it off the table, and stretched. I got up picked up the alarm clock and headed for the bathroom. I brushed my teeth and combed through my hair. The house was so sound I thought Clay had already left. I turned up my radio, which still had his demo in it and started to get changed.

Shari, get that crap off there. Clay yelled as he walked in my room. I turned to him and smiled. He had just woken up. I must have awakened him. Oh im sorry. I thought you were already gone. I said walking over and turning the radio down. Well you thought wrong. I dont have a class till 10 this morning. I was hoping to sleep in but. He said pointing to the stereo. Well, go bad to bed then grumpy. I told him looking through my drawers. I thought he had left when I heard the bedroom door shut, so I took off my nightshirt and turned around. CLAY. Get out. I said covering myself. I dont know why it was such a big deal, its not like he didnt know what I looked like. Whoa, calm down. Come here. He said patting the bed. I sat down still covering my naked breast with my shirt. He kissed my cheek and then he looked straight in my eyes. This is much harder then I thought. He said. I looked down at his hands in his lap, and he wasnt kidding. He was much harder, well, you know. Anyway, he turned away from me and looked down at the floor. Clay, look at me. Youve seen me before. Im yours, you can look at me. Surely to God you would know that I like it when you look at me. Now look at me. I said taking my hand under his chin and raising his head to me.

I kissed his lips softly and ran my hands through his mess of hair. I dropped my shirt knowing how bad that would be I didnt care. He owed me after getting me all worked up last night. I wrapped my arms around him and he held onto my waist. He pulled away and looked at me. See we are doing it again. Why cant we just sit here and talk? he asked standing up from the bed. Well for one, you stayed in here when you knew I would be getting dressed and you sat on my bed. I said smiling at him. I found this all sorta amusing. Shari, STOP it. He shouted. What the hell was I doing? He had totally lost me. What did I do? I asked. Nothing, you did nothing but if we are going to date and do it for real, im going to have to move out. he said walking out of my room. My tummy dropped. I didnt want him to move out. He was my best friend as well as my boyfriend and lover. What was I going to do?

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I stood up from my bed and changed my clothes for class that day. At the rate I was going I was going to be late anyway. I threw on a pair of jogging pants and an over sized t-shirt. I didnt care what I looked like today; I just wanted to get out of there as quick as I could. I put my hair up in a clip and grabbed my things.

I walked back in the living room and looked for my keys, they were on the kitchen table. I grabbed them and made my way to the door, I stopped when I felt his hand on my shoulder. What? I yelled not turning around to him. I love you. He said. I opened the door without saying a word and left. I got in my car, and I could feel the tears starting to well up in my eyes. No, Shari. No crying.  I told myself. I started my car and made my way to school.

I looked at the clock overhead in the classroom. It was 4:30, two more hours of this shit. I couldnt wait to get out of here. I didnt know why I was ready to go home and face Clay, but I knew I had to. A couple hours later I was on my way home. Instead of cooking when I got home I stopped by the drive thru of McDonalds and grabbed a salad. I finally made my way home to find Clays car in the drive. I sighed as I retrieved my things and walked to the door.

Opening the door I heard laughing. What the hell? No who the hell was in my house? I threw my stuff on the kitchen counter and walked into the living room. I stood there a minute to focus. Shari, your home. Come here theres someone I want you to meet. Clay said extending his hand to me and kissing my cheek. I didnt take his hand. I just looked at him and walked toward this girl standing in my living room. Shari, this is Heather. Heather, this is Shari. Clay said. I nodded. I walked to my room and slammed the door.

I plopped down on my bed and sighed. In all the time we have been living together, Clay had NEVER brought a girl friend home. Even if she was just as friend. I turned on my cd player and Clays voice came blaring through the speakers. The song was I Know How The River Feels what the hell. I didnt need to hear this now. I jumped up as fast as my body would let me and hit stop, but it kept playing. I tried turning it down, nothing. So I reached around to pull the plug, and I thought about how much I loved this song. I lay back down and closed my eyes. So many things went through my head. What was she doing here? Who was she? Did Clay like her? What were his intensions? Did he plan on hurting me? I was scared I didnt know what to think. He told me he wanted us to date and not only that but he loves me. I know he does. He cut, not only him but also me as well from sex. Im so confused.

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I didnt even eat that night. I must have fell asleep with out even thinking about it. When I woke up I was still in my regular clothes. I looked at the clock it was 3 am. I got out of bed and headed for the bathroom. It was dark. Clay must have gone to bed.

Walking in the bathroom, I looked over at the couch and noticed Clay sleeping on it. I shook my head and made my way to the bathroom. I washed my face, and knew I couldnt go back to sleep. I went to the kitchen to get me a drink. Good Lord, who drank all the Mt Dew. I thought to myself. I got me some milk, and a kit kat bar.

On my way back to my room, I heard Clay moving around. I kept walking. Hey you. He said. I turned and looked at him, he had put his glasses on and sat up on the couch. Hey. I said back. Come here. He said giving me the come hither finger. I went over to him and stood there. Milk in one hand and candy in the other.

He motioned for me to sit. I did. Why you sleeping out here? I asked taking a drink of my milk. Cause Heathers in my room. He said pointing to his room. WHAT? I asked raising my voice, and standing to leave. Whats the matter with you? he asked standing up beside me. He was ignoring my question. Theres NOTHING wrong with me. Now why in the hell is she in your room? In your bed? In OUR house? I was pissed. I could feel my tears welling up. I ran to my room. I slammed my door and got under the covers. I didnt want anything else to happen tonight.

I heard Clay open my bedroom door. I turned toward the window and wiped the tears away from my eyes. Shari. He started as he sat on the edge of my bed. I moved as far from him as I could. I, well, I dont really know where to start. Dont bother. I interrupted him. Im going to talk, even if you dont wanna hear me. He moved his way on the bed. I could tell he was sitting with his legs folded. I love you, Ive never wanted anything more then you in my life. Even when I had other girlfriends, I still wanted nothing but you. You have been my inspiration to do everything in life that I have or will do. He sighed. Anyway, I got scared when we started doing things I had never done before. I enjoy every moment I am with you. I love kissing you and touching you. When you touch me I never want it to end. Goodness, Shari, I got scared and thought I would see if your exactly what I want. I didnt touch this girl, or kiss her. We did nothing. She got a little drunk from the champagne and I didnt want her driving home. I looked for the keys to take he myself, but I couldnt find them. He shut up. All I could hear was his little sobs. I wanted to put my arms around him and kiss him so badly, but I couldnt, no that wasnt it I wouldnt.

I felt as he got up off the bed. I love you. He said as he left my room, closing the door silently on his way out. He had made a totally fool out of me. How was I supposed to ever forgive him for that? I tried not to think about it anymore. I laid there in silence as I thought about everything he had said. He was scared? So was I. This was as new to me as it was to him.

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I must have fallen asleep once again. When I woke the sun was shining through the window, and it was a whole new day. I rolled over to look at the time. It was 10am. Thank God it was Saturday, or it would be another late school day for me.

I walked out of my room, and went to the bathroom. I noticed someone had just taken a shower. The steam was still all over the room. I wiped the mirror off so I could see myself. I was a wreck. I looked horrible. I brushed through my hair and brushed my teeth. I gave myself one more pitiful look and headed to the kitchen.

Clay was sitting at the kitchen table, drinking his OJ. I walked past him and got myself something to eat. I took a deep breath before sitting across from him at the table. Sitting there I nibbled around on my doughnut, waiting for him to say something. Not a word came out of his mouth.

So, I spoke. Is she gone? I had to ask. I needed to know. Clay looked up at me and almost smiled. Yeah she is. I started breathing easier. The house was once again mine. Ok, well we need to talk about a few things. I told him. He shook his head; he knew we did as well.

I stood up and walked to the couch, he followed. Once I sat down I turned to him. You still moving out? I asked, playing with one of the pillows. I was as nervous he would say yes. Thats something I didnt want. I wanted him to stay right where he was. I really did love him, not only as a boyfriend, or whatever we were but also as my best friend. No, im not moving out. Shari, im very sorry for last night. I know exactly what I want in my life. Ive made plenty of mistakes, but your not one of them. I love you. He said. I sighed. I think that made him nervous. I wanted to hug him so bad. So I did. I reached over and held on to him. I buried my head in his neck, his hair was wet. I didnt want to cry, or be sad. I wanted to start this over.

He kissed my cheek, and held on for dear life. Then the phone rang. I pulled away from him to answer it, but he wouldnt let me. He picked up the receiver and hung it back up. He placed his hand under my chin and brought my face up to his. He gently kissed my lips. Just a soft kiss. Letting me know just how much he really did love me. I responded to his kiss, this kiss brought back memories of the very first kiss we shared. I thought about how wrong it could be. Not this time. This was where my heart was, and as far along as I know always will be.

Come here. He told me, opening his arms wide to me. I fell inside them. I could feel his heart race as I got as close as I could. I placed my lips on his neck, as he held on to me. I couldnt resist him anymore. I wanted him again. This time there would be no saying NO.

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As I continued to kiss his neck, he trembled. He knew I wanted him. He took in a deep breath and slid me away from him. Looking in his eyes, I could tell he wanted me too. He lay me down on the couch, and slowly slid on top of me. His tongue began exploring my neck, and my shoulders. His breath was hot and heavy.

I want you, Clay. I want you now. I told him. Shhh, patience. He whispered. I ached for his touch, for him. His tongue was teasing me; it was sliding in and out of my cleavage. I wanted him to keep going. I wanted to feel him. His tongue was so strong, his lips pressed against my chest and his fingers ran down to the bottom of my shirt. He rolled it up, pulling my bra up too. His fingers just barely gazed my nipple.

He lifted his head to me, and kissed my lips, letting his tongue dart in and out of it. His fingers now teasing my nipples, with every touch I would let out a soft moan. He loved teasing me. His lips left mine, and made a trail down to my nipples taking one in his mouth and biting gently. He slid his hands down to take off my pants. He pulled them down, and his tongue trailed down further.

He stopped at my belly button, letting his tongue slip inside. I jerked. I wanted him to keep going. He stopped, looked up at me, and raised his eyebrows. I smiled. He continued. His tongue now reaching my outer thigh. Baby. I moaned. He looked at me again. No dont stop. I shouted.

His tongue now on the inside of my thigh, I could feel his breath on my wetness. I wanted his tongue inside me. I wanted him tasting me. He licked the inside of my thigh over and over. He let out little moans, to let me know he liked what he tasted. Finally, he let his tongue slid to my hotness. I could feel his tongue slipping over my clit, I moaned.

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He was kissing me so intensely; he was using his tongue to explore my mouth. He reached up and threw his shirt on the floor. He pressed his body to mine. He was hot. I knew I was on fire, but he was hot. I reached down and undid his pants. He pushed them down and onto the floor with all the other clothes.

He started kissing my neck. Then he whispered, Ive missed you. I sighed. Not a bad sigh, but a good one. I could feel his hardness pressing against my thigh. He was so ready. I ran my fingers over his chest, and he took my hand in his. Placing it on his rock hard manhood. I stroked him slowly; I wasn't ready for him to finish. I know selfish huh?

He pressed against me, causing my hand to stop moving. He pulled my hand back up, and he slipped himself inside me. He felt so good. So hard. I moaned beneath him. His lips trailed to my cheek and then my chest. Letting his lips grab hold of my nipple once again, as he pushed in and out of me. Thrusting harder and harder.

He was getting better with every stroke. His hardness pressed inside me, my wetness around him. His entire length moving in me. I wanted to scream, it was pure ecstasy. His lips, his eyes, his freckles. I could see all those things so clearly. He was so amazingly sexy.

His thrusting became more urgent, and I moved my hips under him. He stopped for a moment. What ever you do, please dont stop moving like that. He told me. I began moving my hips up and down. Making him thrust deeper in me. I made circular motions, and he moaned loudly. He was enjoying every bit of this.

He grabbed my hips and sat up in front of me. My body still lying down, he started pumping himself in and out. Over and over. I could feel him pulsing. He was so close. He was calling my name, silently. I could still hear him. The harder he pushed the louder he became. I placed my hands on top of his, which were still on my hips. He grabbed my hands and pulled my body to him, making him come immediately.

His body came down on me, and his face was pressed against mine. Cheek to cheek. He turned his head to me and gently kissed me. Now I know what ive been missin he said. I giggled. He sat up pulling me to him. We sat there the longest time, neither one of us saying a word.